The remains of my Heart.

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By the time I am perfect,I shall be in pieces bifurcated in millions of skin;

And then my remains will be imperfect for you,for my divisions will not be in accordance of your mundane expectations;

The thoughts have started already to torment me in the hatred I have for my presence.

The shimmer seems vanishing now,in the lost desire for solace.

In the water..

...flow away with your hair flying... I am not your straight line (and beguile me)... like the sea:
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I tried hard and struggled bad to make everything ravishing about myself,people still tangle me in their manipulative games,that unspoken hatred glares from their eyes and sometimes so brutal that is shines from their dark heart,I’ve collected myself many times and made peace often with these surroundings yet somehow I feel the threshold point exceeding the hold.I am entwined in my own walls of fear now as if I am my inner chaos that my mind refuse to make peace with.Sublimity of thoughts somehow is being crushed and destructed thus making me go deeper and deeper.Now as I am in the waters,I feel happy here, it amazed me first still the tranquility is speechless to describe.I am satisfied deep down,maybe I needed a lone time?I needed my own peace where I could satisfy only myself and no other hearts as they will pierce me only till I bleed..bleed so bad,my face turns blue and so does my heart.

I do not wish to float on souflle` of clouds because if it bursts I shall come down on earth so its better to be drowned.I am still in a state of furore,don’t know what people will again inject in me,I am exhausted and lost each day and now I don’t expect miracles to stop the pain so I shall remain underneath without being vindictive anymore,hoping may I find my little pieces of heart so that I can connect and rejoin them once again,in this emptiness.

Duality in Human!

The time I blossomed on earth,I was unaware what all this universe had for me.Locked in my own dreams,I know I was always the benevolent one!I never played with any other human,remained coherent.What popped in my mind was always on my tongue,bad or good..still I spoke all true emotions.Now the sensations of human mind bewilders me,intrigues me to know more of it.I adamantly believe in Karma,since childhood and so never try to twirl any other brain,but I see people never fail in vehemently rebuking your conscious or your serene thoughts.They be a flower in front of you and at the back they become the diabolical thorn of that flower.They have this tendency may be due to the blandish society,or due to the cajole trait they inherit from the society,but eventually they do it.And here I lose to understand the chain it forms.Mind games,win or loose,I fail to understand always, as the reason is I know my part that this world actually deserves.In this grievous world already,how can I play more sanctimonious?I deny to be the hypocrite,unleashing others opinion is something that I do but in the most decorous way.I know I have to perceive still a lot,but here I deny the duality that I see in everyone.Peppy talks,coaxed words even if they think the other soul does not deserve it,then why to say it in first place?This duality,is something that makes me jitter.I admonish the one’s who play such destructive game to win another heart.It does nothing besides being a heavy burden to attain peace in all the whims of human kind or worldwide.