How deep I need to go to bring my paintings of heart,
how splendid should I be,to make you laugh,
I giggled and beamed to show you the light,
the light that fizzled out for you,
Wasn’t I keeping you warm,attainable,
cold breeze is speaking to me,destroying once blooming petals of heart,
here I am,shivering once again.
Hello dear readers!
Life is so unpredictable yet random some times,things have become so different now for me,sometimes its really hard to hold my self and motivate my inner mirth,each day and each night,there is some pinch of loneliness,I don’t know exactly what emotion is that now.I know,this phase will also pass out..guess what?I thought this days back also..months back too,still I am here rambling crazy words,perhaps!Also to be honest,I got bored with my same style of typing through my blog but not with my poems.Funny thing is,I wasn’t even a poet till now,I only wrote poems occasionally and more of lifestyle articles,but as I said earlier..life is unpredictable and here I am updating all the heaviness though my so called”intense,heavy poems”by many readers.Glad I’ve reached at this junction that people actually read my poems and appreciate to a strong level of satisfaction.Well coming back to my rambling..I was just shutting my eyes off when I thought why people on this planet have to be insensitive while talking to the next person?Because they were vexatious due to some stuff?Or agitated?Allright that can happen!But what when insensitive souls crush the sensitive one’s?Really I am not making sense perhaps,but the state of mind is furore only..maybe I need some days off from reality as its utter debacle!Maybe I need some more close relation with nature,because it always saves me,or a cup of hot coffee,perhaps..I need something at least as I am unsatisfied..
^^still unsatisfied^^What do I want?Jeez!
Desultory I stand amidst the green meadow,to be a part of this moment where silence can be exhibited by me;
Peevish is my mind,remains unknown to the nebulous thoughts occupying inside;
I see two roads in front of me,one is lavish and comfort while other enjoys the hug of inner conscious;
Bewildering it seems to me,oh!how I could just stick to the greenery that I possess as for now,driveling is to choose the path;
Hysterical my heart is,clamouring insists and prevails inside,friable all my emotions seem;
Lost I am,in the peace of this ambience I see;
The sky above is so composed,smiling at me, nothing to lose;
I stand here,lost..lost in this wilderness of my heart,consigned to oblivion.